Watch out! There's something nasty within, the inner enemy that causes all sin! Within us all is the ego, which is that which wants us to believe in this world of illusion and therefore to believe in separation. We are not separate from each other and not separate from God - KNOW THAT!
As we progress on the spiritual path it can seem bright and nice with only the occasional dark cloud, however as we become truly ready for change a surprising and for many, scary process happens. We become aware deeply of the ego, aware of how it tries to scare us by whispering we might be ill or urging to judge that person because they don't wear the right clothes. The ego is about separation, it thrives in it and can only exist when the mindset of separation reigns supreme. It's shocking because as we realise the level of control the ego has it can be crushing and deeply sorrowful and yet we should remember that we now are AWARE of what it has done and tries to do, meaning things will be different from here on in. Allow yourself that temporary sadness, feel the loss and realise you miss only one thing, your oneness with God, there is no other form of security, not with money or with a loving partner. By desiring anything in this world over and above God means relegating God to second place and the ego to first place.
This is an illusion we live in here, a place that feels cut of from direct experience of God, in our minds it feels as if God is a long way a way, but that is an illusion for God is close- can you feel that?
You must become aware of what is wrong first so you can make it right, don't feel bad for observing your lack of mental control, for example the fact you judge people for any reason. You can't see anyone but yourself wherever you look in this world, whatever you see is a projection of what is inside you! So it is essential to see everyone as God so you can see yourself as God. It is essential to forgive everyone for anything or we will never accept that God forgives us for everything, in fact God doesn't acknowledge this reality exists so whatever you think is happening here is not happening. We crave the love and eternal peace of God and once we really understand that we do we can move to the second stage which is changing our mind habits, changing our thought system away from the ego thought system to a thought system in harmony with God. By forgiving as God would do we start to merge with God, this is an illusion this whole world, make forgiving yourself and this whole world a priority because it is not really happening. Screams of pain can only occur when you believe it's real. Forgive who you think is bad now and you can feel waves of Gods peace coming to you, forgive yourself for all you think you have done. Put your attention not on worrying about things but on forgiving everyone, for if you can't believe the people of the world are divine you never will believe you are. It's a step by step process, use your whole life to take you to that point of non-judgemental love, you either think the way of the world (and therefore the ego) or you think the way of God. no exceptions. You choose, for you will live with the consequences.
